As I Entered Your World, I Came Home
The moment I arrived, I felt a deep sense of homecoming. I understood what it meant to exist beyond a name, beyond gender, beyond age. I was no longer defined by my past—by what I had done, seen, or even by what I had yet to experience.
There was trepidation, a subtle fear that lingered within me. Yet, deep down, I recognized these feelings as echoes of my commitment to this journey. They weren’t barriers, but reflections of the seriousness required to go deep and cleanse. I longed to see, to know, to feel. And so, I surrendered.
What awaited me was beyond imagination. I stepped into a vast spiritual amphitheater, where every character and archetype of the psyche came to life. It was as if the universe had orchestrated the perfect cast—each presence designed to reveal, to challenge, to expose my fears and the hidden truths beyond them. This was not merely an experience; it was work—sacred work. I had to step into the feelings, move through them, and transcend them, allowing the energy to shift and flow.
Exhilaration surged through me. I knew I was in for something profound. If fortune smiled upon me, and if my work was honest, perhaps I would even be gifted moments of laughter along the way. But above all, I was walking the path to discover the essence of who I truly was.
A Dance of Spirits and Love
I was with you—the birds, the earth, the trees, the dogs, the children, and the spirits—as you moved through me and beyond me. I felt your presence in every breath, every whisper of the wind. It was a delicate balance to stay with you, to remain open. Too heavy, and you slipped away; too light, and I lost my connection. It was a dance—our spirits intertwining, moving in harmony.
Each time fear gripped my heart, I breathed into it, wrapped myself around it, and asked: What do you want to show me? What do you want me to know?
And again and again, the answer came: Love.
I was shown Love. Over and over. I was shown that I am Love. That he is Love, that she is Love. That all is Love. The rest—the doubts, the masks, the falsehoods—are illusions we are conditioned to believe. We are all wearing them. And yet, beneath every single mask, there is only Love. Everything else is an attempt to hide it, to block it, to protect ourselves from it.
So, I opened my heart. Again and again. And each time, I was shaken by its vastness—by how much Love it holds, by how much more it is capable of. It does not stop. It will not stop. Love is infinite.
Each time I was shown a new layer, I was asked to look deeper: Can you see it? Can you see that it is you?
And I saw.
We are the Love. We are the Medicine. We are the Healers.
No one else.
Yes, others may teach us techniques, offer us tools, show us methods to quiet the mind and steady the soul. But in the end, Love is not something to be learned—it is something to remember. It is who we are.
The Other Way: Surrendering to Love
There is another way. A simpler, truer, and more profound way.
To just stop.
Stop searching, stop resisting, stop analyzing.
Just be the Love.
I saw how we intellectualize Love—how we turn it into a never-ending process of interpretation. Instead of simply feeling it, we shift it from the heart to the mind, dissecting each moment, trying to define what cannot be defined.
But Love is not meant to be studied. It is meant to be lived.
Again and again, I was taken on journeys, each one deeper than the last. I was asked to run with Her, to match Her speed, to keep going even when I thought I had reached my limit. And just when I thought I could go no further, She urged me to take one more step—and then another.
She promised I wouldn’t get lost. She held me, embraced me in a way I had never known before. She loved me completely.
Each time, She showed me the way, then gently stepped aside and asked me to follow myself. To trust where I was going.
To go and not look back.
To surrender and ride the journey out.
She nourished me when I tired, lifted my spirit when I feared I couldn’t go more and she encouraged me to go further. It became her mantra to me; go go go. Her love grew fiercer when she felt I could handle things by myself and she pushed me harder; l always felt her love and presence but with a detachment; a fiercely loving mothers pride of watching her young grow. She was watching my passage to the other shore as my consciousness expanded to incorporate, within my being, that nothing ‘out here’ matters; there is life beyond this one form. I was challenged to remain in conscious connection with her; the unmanifested, Divine, Source; She has many names but she belongs to us all.
She asked me to trust, trust as never before , to step into the way of my heart. TO surrender to the wisdom of my heart and to take refuge in the loving centre within. She showed me the ways that the past becomes so entangled in the present and the ways that the present becomes so enmeshed with the present. She asked me to let go of anything that was not here right now, happening in this moment and train with all my heart. Anything else is not needed. For one day, I will cease to be this thinking mind, yet I shall always be this loving heart.
I was blown away by the sense of sacredness ; in complete awe, for the depth of my feeling. She showed me this ritual I was within is a training ground to see beneath, to feel beneath and to become the love that we ultimately are; we are worthy; we are all worthy of love and we are all deserving of love, we deserve to be here, and the need is great for us to be all here. We may lose our way, some for longer periods of time than others but to deeply respect all that walk this earth allows all to find their way back to themselves.
During my time with her I repeated over and over again the following;
I’m Sorry. Please Forgive me. Thank You. I Love You.
There was no order, i’m not sure if this is how I repeated it but I felt each and every sentence deeply echoing in me; it felt like my heart was going to explode in the uttering of some. I could feel the difference frequencies that were being activated within me with the different phrases. Oddly, I’m quite sure that some of the work I did with this four phrases were not only for me; there was something larger at play. During this time in reflecting on my experience, I remembered these phrases are said to ‘belong’ to the ancient Hawaiian mantra of “Ho’oponopono”. I read the history and philosophy of Ho’oponopono some years ago but I didn’t find it resonated with me, yet now, I feel called to look into it again some more, if only to awaken those same feelings I touched.
My work now is a grateful return to this earthly place, an on-going commitment and desire to integrate what I experienced during those ascending states of consciousness from the plant plane!
I would like to express my deepest love, respect and friendship to Orion Gomez, founder of psychotravels from Medellin-Colombia – a small community of beautiful people who after experiencing first hand the benefits of the plant medicine (ayahuasca), decided to offer support, guidance and an unravelling of the experience, as well as the transportation to be able to help others to experience this sacred ceremony.
Taita, (Shaman); your spirit was so very big and your spirit was so very bright; you looked after us all as your children. I felt your love and I felt your wisdom. You have visited that plane many times; I felt them welcome you as our guide with much respect and I felt you watching over us to ensure we all had safe passage.
If you are in or at some point in the future are traveling to Medellin-Colombia, please consider reaching out to Orion who is a beautiful companion on this plant journey (ayahuasca); As well as providing safe transportation from and to Medellin > Guarne; a small town approx 40 mins from Medellin where you arrive to the Taita’s house set within nature full of beautiful birds of paradise, parrots and even a large white rabbit running free, you will meet your Taita, a teacher of the indigenous culture of Putumayo. A truly grounding, humbling and genuine ayahuasca experience.
Love to you All.
Please feel free to get in touch in you have questions or something to share.
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